Falling Down By Ben Jelen

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 30, 2008, 7:19PM

• Mood: Gloomy
• Listening to: Ben Jelen - Falling Down
• Reading: Cosmopolitan Mag August Issue
• Watching: Crazy First Love
• Eating: Pizza
• Drinking: C2

At a stoplight in the middle of the night Stuck in first and I wonder if I should stay The right is history and to my left the choice is right But this seems a little bit too hard
And all the questions come running through my mind Will I see this another way? The simple truth is I'm falling, falling down And I don't want to drag her through the bottom A
nd then she says, "Sit in front of me, turn around you'll see I'm everything you'd want, all you'd ever need Come back into my world, you know I'm always yours" And she makes so much sense when she says, "Don't throw this away"
It's hard to know what's real when it all seems wrong But I promise you I'll find what's going on I just need to follow the sun before I'll know if I'll see this another way The simple truth is I'm falling, falling down And I don't want to drag you through the bottom
And then you say, "Sit in front of me, turn around you'll see I'm everything you'd want, all you'd ever need Come back into my world, you know I'm still your girl" And she makes so much sense when she says,"Don't throw this away"
Isabell, she treads so lightly, floating in her gypsy dresses Even as her words cuts deep, I can't deny the truth in them On the phone she talks a lot, and me I listen hopelessly So directionless, I head into oblivion And then I decide to give another random memory To remind her of the first time we sang out to the sea Oh Isabell, you always understood me Please Isabell, forgive me now And all the questions come running through my mind Will I see this another way? The simple truth is I'm falling, falling down And I don't want to drag you through the bottom No, I don't want to drag you through the bottom

i was watching Las Vegas and i heard this song played, i search the net for atleast half a day just to get this information! and i so love the song.

Artist Information

Born	July 8, 1979 (age 29) Edinburgh, Scotland(1979-07-08)
Origin	New York City, New York, U.S.
Genre(s)	Pop, piano rock, pop rock
Occupation(s)	Singer/songwriter/musician
Instrument(s)	Vocals, guitar, piano, violin
Years active	2004–present
Label(s)	Fearless Management(2004–2005) Custard (2006–present)
Associated acts	Linda Perry, Tori Amos, Joseph Janus
Website	benjelen.com

List Of Friends, Are You In It?

Publish Post

I had this like years ago.

I signed : 09/04/03

these are my friends.
are you in it?

0942PM - 11/19/07

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 27, 2008, 8:58 PM

• Mood: Tearful
• Listening to: John Mayer - Back To You
• Reading: Cosmopolitan Mag August Issue
• Watching: Las Vegas
• Eating: Egg Nog
• Drinking: Water

had this conversation with a good friend back in college over sms and she asked me how my "lovelife" is doing and so i told her "does love exist?" well, what the heck i dont have one, she said i sounded bitter. after all ive been through to find love why wouldnt i? who could blame me sounding bitter when all i've been through was hearthaches and pains. being bitter is my comfort zone to avoid feeling empty in the middle of the night because if i allow such loneliness id drown myself with tears by now. to be honest, i am lonely knowing i dont have someone to call my own. i went through alot just loving someone, i lost myself in the process of finding true love and im scared that i have given everything that i might not know how the next relationship works. i've out grown love. staying as the "hopeless romantic" girl is not an option as well, im losing the real me. i know deep inside im still someone waiting to be rescued and be love by prince charming. so when will he arrive? my prince? im hoping he'll arrive soon, soon enough to save me from becoming someone who's afraid of giving in. im becoming numb day by day. i really am.

Written: 0942PM : 111907

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Used To

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 24, 2008, 10:40PM

• Mood: Hopeless
• Listening to: Chris Daughtry - Used To
• Reading: Cosmopolitan Mag August Issue
• Watching: Lost Season 3
• Eating: Tostillas
• Drinking: Coke

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around
You used to lean on me, the only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like we had no where we needed to go
Nice and slow, to no place in particular

We used to have this figured out, we used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control, we never thought we used to know
At least there's you and at least there's me
Can we get this back? Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I used to reach for you and I got lost along the way
I used to listen, you always had the just right thing to say
I used to follow you, never really cared where we would go
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all

We used to have this figured out, we used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control, we never thought we used to know
At least there's you and at least there's me
Can we get this back? Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I look around me and I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you, it's empty and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around
The only one around

We used to have this figured out, we used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control, we never thought we used to know
At least there's you and at least there's me
Can we get this back? Can we get this back to how it used to be?
Yeah, to how it used to be, to how it used to be
Yeah, to how it used to be, to how it used to be

Old Pictures

Picture taken outside San Isidro Parish Church
[ January 01, 1988 ]

Before leaving to Poor Clare Monastery in Lilo-an
[ October 1994 ]

With my Mama during our Zoo Tour back in kindergarten

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Cueva Clan Reunion

Meet the Cueva Clan

This would be the first time I have attended a Clan Reunion, and to my surprise there was a lot of people from the gathering. ALOT! its a CLAN indeed.

New faces. Lolo's, Lola's, Tita's, Tito's and Cousins there was a lot of time, even a day wont be enough to get to know them all. It was color coding as well, i get to wear red! hehe

It was a good experience, we will have the next clan reunion 2 years from now. Hope I can attend. =)

My New Room

Notice i havent had any post for 2 days?
been busy with renovating my new room and finally its done!!!

Deviant ID

My CAD Player

Desktop II

About Me

i can be someone's worst nightmare
but i hope i can be someone's dream come true
im struggling to find words that best describe ME exactly
stuck in the part where i get to say good stuff about me
because i know i suck at things
but i know a few where im good at
a good daughter well im trying
a good friend thats what say
and i love deeply

i love Music in general
i love to Dress Up, enough just to make me look good
im B i G and i am aware of that
loving every single bit of my Love Handles
i love watching Movies,
movie marathon on friday night is what id prefer
i love Technology
from mobile phone to world wide web
and i love taking pictures,
to remember good times with people i love

i am possessive because i value the things i own
a liar because i know how to keep my secrets
i made a couple of mistakes
and i love to do a couple of more
because from those mistakes ill learn how life works
and that makes me the not so ordinary girl you see around the corner

Let Her Cry

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 10, 2008, 10:56 PM

• Mood: Hysterical
• Listening to: Hootie & The Blowfish - Let Her Cry
• Reading: http://kalay86.blogspot.com/
• Watching: LoST

<sup>She sits alone by a lamppost Trying to find a thought that's escaped her mind She says, “Dad's the one I love the most But Stipe's not far behind”

She never lets me in only tell me where's she's been When she's had too much to drink I say that I don't care I just run my hands Through her dark hair and I pray to God You gotta help me fly away, and just

Let her cry, if the tears fall down like rain Let her sing, if it eases all her pain Let her go, let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow let her be, let her be

This morning I woke up alone, found a note standing by the phone Saying baby, maybe I'll be back some day I wanted to look for you, you walked in I didn't know just what I should do So I sat back down and had a beer and felt sorry for myself, saying

Let her cry, if the tears fall down like rain Let her sing, if it eases all her pain Let her go, let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow let her be, let her be

Let her cry, if the tears fall down like rain Let her sing, if it eases all her pain Let her go, let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow let her be, oh

Last night I tried to leave, cried so much I just could not believe She was the same girl I fell in love with long ago She went in the back to get high I sat down on my couch and cried yelling Oh mama, please help me, won't you hold my hand

Let her cry, if the tears fall down like rain Let her sing, if it eases all her pain Let her go, let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow let her be
Let her cry, if the tears fall down like rain Let her sing, if it eases all her pain Let her go, let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow let her be, oh let her be</sup>

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Logic of Boredom

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 10, 2008, 3:40AM

• Mood: Artistic
• Listening to: Colective Soul - The World I Know
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: LoST

so so,
the internet was done when i got home..
hmm that was around 9pm,
and it just got back and it already 1AM.

and....
boredom sunked in

so heres what i got so far

An empty room
An empty bed
A hope that someday
I can find someone to share them with

A lonely soul
A broken faith
A hope that one of these days
I'll find what I have been missing

The words that was left unsaid
The actions that was left undone
Missing something that wasnt there
Something that wasnt mine

Someday I guess
Someday I might
See your face again
See if your hand fit the spaces between mine




so whats this all about?
bwhahahahhahahahaha

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Current Desktop

08 08 08

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 8, 2008, 4:18 AM

• Mood: Joy
• Listening to: Angel Moon - He's All I Want
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: XFiLES (series)

so its the 8th of August (the 8th month) 2008 .
and they always say that the number 8 is a lucky number,
and the day did start wonderful for me!
hehe

and its the start



anyways, i search the net for further information about "8" and this is what i got from wikipedia



Eight

<sub>The word for "eight" ( 八，捌 ) in Mandarin ( Pinyin: bā ) sounds similar to the word which means "prosper" or "wealth" ( 发 - short for "发财", Pinyin: fā ). In regional dialects the words for "eight" and "fortune" are also similar, eg Cantonese "baat" and "faat".

There is also a resemblance between two digits, "88", and the shuang xi ('double joy' ), a popular decorative design composed of two stylized characters 喜 ( xi, 'joy', 'happiness' ).

Telephone number 8888-8888 was sold for USD$270,723 in Chengdu, China.

The Summer Olympics in Beijing are scheduled to open on 8/8/08 at 8:08:08pm[2]

A man in Hangzhou offered to sell his license plate reading A88888 for RMB 1.12 million.[2]

Dragon Fish Industry in Singapore, a breeder of rare Asian Arowanas ( which are "lucky fish" themselves, and, being a rare species, are required to be microchipped ), makes sure to use numbers with plenty of eights in their microchip tag numbers, and appears to reserve particular numbers especially rich in eights and sixes ( e.g. 702088880006688 ) for particularly valuable specimens.[3][4]</sub>

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