Unsent Letters

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 29, 2008, 8:08 PM

• Mood: Sympathy
• Listening to: Staind - In Your Eyes
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: PH CLique Room
• Eating: ACE biscuits
• Drinking: Water

"I tried ... hard ..."

... how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you?

dear you,

i tried to stay focus my thoughts with stuff that would make me forget you and what i thought we had but nothings working, my brain and my heart doesnt get along well. not much. i know it would be just a waste of time but my heart says your all worth it, i tried almost everything just to fill my mind with things that has nothing to do with you but the harder i fight this feelings i end up lost and will only lead me back to you. i know you are fed up with my desperate lines and i know its been hard for you, you are more in pain than i do and how selfish of me to only think of myself all the time but how can u blame a girl thats so much in love with you? i cant bring myself to hate you, it was silly of me to believe that we had a chance, illusion won over reality. im drowning myself with tears and it wont stop. wish i could change how i feel for you so that i can live my life without messing yours.

how i am a mess right now, i never expected that a kiss would mean nothing to you but a kiss. i misunderstood everything, every single action you did, simply meant nothing.

URS, ME

071507 / 1144PM

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Journal Entry: Mon Jul 28, 2008, 10:22 PM

• Mood: It's Hot
• Listening to: Joe - If I Was Your Man
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: PH CLique Room

i got my 3,333 page views awhile ago!

weeeeew!

thanks guys!


xoxo

Solar Eclipse 2008

Solar Eclipse

Journal Entry: Sun Jul 27, 2008, 09:08 PM

• Mood: Daily Needs
• Listening to: Killerbee 92.3
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: PH CLique Room

after 2 yrs from the last Solar Eclipse, another Solar Eclipse will happen on the 1st of August. August 1, 2008 solar Eclipse Info: On Friday, 2008 August 01, a total eclipse of the Sun is visible from within a narrow corridor that traverses half the Earth. The path of the Moon's umbral shadow begins in Canada and extends across northern Greenland, the Arctic, central Russia, Mongolia, and China. A partial eclipse is seen within the much broader path of the Moon's penumbral shadow, which includes northeastern North America, most of Europe and Asia. [website: [link]

A Letter To Elise

Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you say
I just can't sit here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same
The way we act out
let me wait to smile
Forget
And make-believe we never needed
Any more than this
Any more than this

Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you do
I know I'll never really get inside of you
To make your eyes catch fire
The way they should
The way the blue could pull me in
If they only would
If they only would
At least I'd lose this sense of sensing something else
That hides away

For me and you: they're worlds to part
With aching looks and breaking hearts
And all the plans your hands can make
Oh I just take as much as you can throw
And then I'll throw it all away
and then I'll throw it all away
Like throwing faces at the sky
Like throwing arms round
Yesterday
I stood and stared
Wide-eyed in front of you
And the face I saw looked back
The way I wanted to
But I just can't hold my tears away
The way you do

Elise believe I never wanted this
I thought this time I'd keep all of my promises
I thought you were the girl I always dreamed about
But I let the dream go
And the promises broke
And the make-believe ran out...

So Elise
It doesn't matter what you say
I just can't stay here every yesterday
Like keep on acting out the same
The way we act out
let me wait to smile
Forget
And make-believe we never needed
Any more than this
Any more than this

And every time I try to pick it up
Like falling sand
As fast as I pick it up
It runs away through my clutching hands
But there's nothing else I can really do
There's nothing else I can really do
There's nothing else
I can really do
At all...

Laag With LiT

"Laag" with LiT

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 26, 2008, 9:02 PM

• Mood: Cheerful
• Listening to: PM Dawn - Being So Not For You
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: PH CLique Room
• Playing: with myself? nyak nyak
• Eating: my fingers (so not!)
• Drinking: nothing (non sense stuff!)

its my day off today, so called up my friend "LiT" (who i miss so much) and asked her if we could go out, and she said yes

we actually haven't seen each other like months? and sooo sooo we went out! and i was actually late! hehe i fell asleep while waiting. tsk tsk

and finally around 2pm we left, we went to SM "Cebu" window shopping! hehe we talked the whole time about updates! was so fun to be with her again, we connect with a lot of stuff.

so after that, we went to El Cuidita (not so sure of the spelling) to eat. talked some more!

Thanks Lit! i always have a blast with u! made me miss good old times! glad we had the time to get together!

Muchkins Ala Karla

Munchkins Ala Karla

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 25, 2008, 5:56PM

• Mood: Eager
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: PH CLique Room
• Eating: Munchkins
• Drinking: Ice Tea

today was pay day, so i went with my 2 guy friends to groceries.. imagine that? we went out for groceries.. anyways, i went off to work early and bought couple of junkfood! and aside from that, i bought some ingredients to make munchkin for my sister.

my munchkin is nam nam!

so im kinda excited what she'd think, she's 10 years old by the way and she love this kinda stuff.

Ingredients
1 Pack ACE biscuits.
1 Can of any condensed milk, the Regular size.
any type of toppings.

Step
you need to crush the ACE biscuit. you should crush it until it will be powdered.
mix the powdered Ace and the condensed milk.
form it, what ever you like!
and then, and put it in your freezer.

LAST but not the least, EAT it!

Cousins

Hair & Nails Day!

Hair & Nails Day!!!

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 22, 2008, 7:25 PM

• Mood: Yearning
• Listening to: The Corrs - Dont Say You Love Me
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: PH CLique Room

So i got bored after working, and i have been complaining about my HAIR looking like this and my nails needs to be done.

So after work and after lunch, i went to the salon to have my hair and nails done. My hair is now short! as if it was long just cut off few inches actually one or two. Shaggy Layer as always, because i think its the only cut that works for me and my big face

And i actually had my nails done as well, i chooo love the color! "Frosted" d*mn! look soo good on me...

thats all for today!

Survey 101 Part II

Survey 101 Part II

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 21, 2008, 7:29PM

• Mood: Mesmerized
• Listening to: Nelly - Country Grammar
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: PH CLique Room
• Eating: Shrimp
• Drinking: Ice Tea

1) Last night, did you go to sleep happy?
* i slept around 2am? happy? hell yeah! i was able to spoke with the composer of "You Are The One" and damn! he sang for me..

2) When was the last time you changed in front of someone?
* 2 mos ago? hehe

3) Anyone told you a secret this week?
* yep!

4) Did you have a good day yesterday?
* i did, it was my day off

5) What was the highlight of today?
* the composer dude!

6) Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
* yeah! sometimes..

7) What happened at 3:00am today?
* snoring??

8) When was the last time you took a picture with your number 3 friend?
*

10) Do you hate anyone?
* nope!

11) Do they know who they are?
* who??

12) What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
* peanut butter alone!

13) When did you last cry?
* last night! while a korean movie.. tsk!

14) Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
* nope!

15) Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
* yah!

16) Are you slowly distancing from someone you love?
* currently my is empty.

17) When was the last time you bought something?
* thursday morning! my eyeglasses.

18) Have you ever told someone you love them?
* yah!

19) Do you continue fighting in an argument even though you know you're wrong?
* i dont!

20) What do you want in your life right now?
* many to mention! hehe

21) Is there anyone that calls you baby?
*

22) In the next 4 months what are you looking forward to the most?
* having someone to hold!

23) Why?
* dont wanna end up

24) Who were the last 5 texts in your inbox from?

Ate Feng, LiT, TiNa, BiNOT, GLen

25) What are you thinking of right now?
* the last question.

26) When was the last time you partied?
* last week. club pump!

27) Have you ever been tanning?
* NO!

28) Have you ever sat and waited for someone to come online?
* i did! several times..

29) When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry?
* when we had our last team building in Bantayan Isl.

30) Have any crazy family members?
* ME!

31) Did you tell someone something today?
*

32) Do you wear Crocs?
* nop, but i wanna try!

33) Have you ever considered a sex change?
* NEVER!

34) What will you buy next?
*

35) Are you bored?
* a bit! too lazy to do something

36) What are you wearing?
* spag, maong shorts.

37) Any plans for today?
* yah! work.

38) What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
* his actually a total stranger

39) What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
* just a bunch of quotes.

40) Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
* nope! nothing fits.